Sunday, September 21, 2014

The Struggle is Part of the Story

Well, another round of fertility treatments ended for us two weeks ago. This time, my stomach bruised from all the injections, my arms sore from the numerous blood draws and more than I can even remember of ultrasounds. 

We had our second IUI on Friday, September 5th. Prior to the doctor coming in to the room, Daniel and I held hands as he led us in prayer. It was one of the most special moments in our marriage. I go into these treatments with such a positive take on the outcome. I always seem to have this feeling like this is the one. And, when two weeks come and go, I'm let down so badly that I can hardly hold it together. There are so many emotions that run through you during this process. 

I am constantly searching for articles, blogs and quotes that will remind myself that we aren't alone in this process but also just words to bring our spirits up. The two week wait is awful. Once the wait is over and the news isn't what you were praying about...a simple quote could make a world of a difference.

I read a quote this morning that I needed to read so badly: 

"God has a purpose for your pain, a reason for your struggles and a reward for your faithfulness. Don't give up!"

We will undergo one more IUI before proceeding with IVF. We are currently on yet another wait list for our next IUI. It's hard to not let life seem like one long wait list when you are going through fertility treatments. But, from the very beginning, I vowed to myself and to my husband that I would not allow this to consume me. It's extremely hard. Do I spend the hour before bed on Pinterest looking at adorable nursery ideas? Yes. Do I think about how I will announce our pregnancy when our prayers are answered? You betcha! But, I also continue living my life with a positive outlook and keeping my faith. There is no other way for me. If I didn't have a positive outlook, the heartache of trying to have a baby for several years would consume me. 

 I truly believe that God only gives you what you can handle. And, I know God has a plan for us. I believe with my whole heart that we will be blessed with a baby one day. 

All of the thoughts and prayers from our friends and family mean the world to us! From the bottom of our hearts, thank you! XO